Dear Diary,


I'm so tired of staring at the wall
But I know I got to put you down because i loved you so.

And I keep trying to make sense of it all
But I can't keep going around and around because i loved you so.

Dear Diary,

why do i feel that things has changed in such a short time.
i don't know what's wrong but i can feel.

and do i know you? the many sides of you?
do you know me?

i know it's not what we thought we were.






but how can i escape without crying
how can i run without falling down.
who will catch me if i fall?

Dear Diary,

i woke up this morning thinking how long can a love last?
why will it change?

i shall start with yesterday. feeling arty and acomplished doing jeline bbirthday board.
Haven't felt so arty since i graduate.


headed to rsw to watch Voyage de la vie.
gorgeous show.
awesome costume.
make me feel like persuading overseas for thearetical costume design.
maybe the me in the past would go without thinking but now i am afraid.
fabulous outline of show thou !
dinner with XG and i am missing him now.

was like rushing my art scene reports yesterday at the thirteen hour
i thought the submission was on wednesday !
camped and XG house finished up and went to school today for submission.
i was 11 mins late thhou.
went back to his arm and fell asleep and here i am typing this and his off to work.
i have been sending out resume today and i hope i get a reply tomorrow !


i miss him

Dear Diary,

It's a saturday and i am at kei's house using her mac typing this having said this means i have skipped school.

was having dinner at taka with cas and ming and the next thing i was flooded with the knowledge of mahjong.

just some thoughts in my mind.

when you want to know something why couldn't they ask the person rather than asking a third party? how do i ever suppose to know where no one really talked to me.

maybe i am just so untrustable .

if i could change what the god create us as, i'll give man instinct to feel another man and stop hurting or rather irritating them.

Germany Versus Argentina.

GERMANY PLEASE WIN. big fat love !

blog revived.
i guess it's really important to jot down memories and feelings afterall. even if no one cares. cause i do.

New Goals for revival.

1. one, keep on living
2. two, believe in myself
3. three, be responsible
4. four, smile
5. five, never give up on things that make what i am

Today , the first day of july 2010.
feeling fresh.
i miss him.
typing this at 6am in the morning doesn't seem quite normal.
been to work , fusion. what can i say? i need to earn bucks.
need to rest. sleep is the most beautiful thing that could ever happen.