Dear Diary,


I'm so tired of staring at the wall
But I know I got to put you down because i loved you so.

And I keep trying to make sense of it all
But I can't keep going around and around because i loved you so.

Dear Diary,

why do i feel that things has changed in such a short time.
i don't know what's wrong but i can feel.

and do i know you? the many sides of you?
do you know me?

i know it's not what we thought we were.






but how can i escape without crying
how can i run without falling down.
who will catch me if i fall?

Dear Diary,

i woke up this morning thinking how long can a love last?
why will it change?

i shall start with yesterday. feeling arty and acomplished doing jeline bbirthday board.
Haven't felt so arty since i graduate.


headed to rsw to watch Voyage de la vie.
gorgeous show.
awesome costume.
make me feel like persuading overseas for thearetical costume design.
maybe the me in the past would go without thinking but now i am afraid.
fabulous outline of show thou !
dinner with XG and i am missing him now.

was like rushing my art scene reports yesterday at the thirteen hour
i thought the submission was on wednesday !
camped and XG house finished up and went to school today for submission.
i was 11 mins late thhou.
went back to his arm and fell asleep and here i am typing this and his off to work.
i have been sending out resume today and i hope i get a reply tomorrow !


i miss him

Dear Diary,

It's a saturday and i am at kei's house using her mac typing this having said this means i have skipped school.

was having dinner at taka with cas and ming and the next thing i was flooded with the knowledge of mahjong.

just some thoughts in my mind.

when you want to know something why couldn't they ask the person rather than asking a third party? how do i ever suppose to know where no one really talked to me.

maybe i am just so untrustable .

if i could change what the god create us as, i'll give man instinct to feel another man and stop hurting or rather irritating them.

Germany Versus Argentina.

GERMANY PLEASE WIN. big fat love !

blog revived.
i guess it's really important to jot down memories and feelings afterall. even if no one cares. cause i do.

New Goals for revival.

1. one, keep on living
2. two, believe in myself
3. three, be responsible
4. four, smile
5. five, never give up on things that make what i am

Today , the first day of july 2010.
feeling fresh.
i miss him.
typing this at 6am in the morning doesn't seem quite normal.
been to work , fusion. what can i say? i need to earn bucks.
need to rest. sleep is the most beautiful thing that could ever happen.

Dear Diary ,

i am sick ):
and the rain yesterday got me worst. fook

things that happen these few days :

chomp chomp with lux kei steph jas and her friend

the next day bought fifi to groom. and i ended in the rain.
but fifi was so cute. ~ love you forever my darling.

i feel so miserable ! ~

HAHAHAHAHAH!

LIFE !

Dear Diary,

i miss clubbing !

yesterday went aunt house in the morning.
i love my aunts.

went bugis find jeline and sam.
watch NIGHT AT THE MUESUM 2.
OMG, if you nv watch it u will regret it.
ITS SO FUCKING FUNNY.
its the best comedy until now. HAHAHAA. ben stiller is forever funny in his own way

went for dinner at er whats the name i forgot. lailainuroumian!

huiting cabbed over and joined us.
went mind's cafe.
repeat pete is so funny!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fun day ! ( in a way. maybe it's better if..................) AHAHAHAHAHA!

oh and there is a 13th horoscope ! after jeline told me i went home and research !
its called the SERPENTAURIS.
its so cool lah. but a new horo means some people's horoscope changes !.
kei became a serpentarius ! so cool!
huiting became a capricorn
jeline's a gemini
sister a picsces.
BUT Y AM I STILL A SAGITTAURIUS? HAHAHA.
but since i love sagi its still ok. HAHAHA.

ARIES = APRIL 19 - MAY 13
TAURUS = MAY 14 - JUNE 19
GEMINI = JUNE 20 - JULY 20
CANCER = JULY 21 - AUG 9
LEO = AUGUST 10 - SEPTEMBER 15
VIRGO = SEPTEMBER 16 - OCTOBER 30
LIBRA = OCTOBER 31 - NOVEMBER 22
SCORPIO = NOVEMBER 23 - NOVEMBER 29
OPHIUCHUS = NOVEMBER 30 - DECEMBER 17
SAGITTARIUS = DECEMBER 18 - JANUARY 18
CAPRICORN = JANUARY 19 - FEBRUARY 15A
QUARIUS = FEBRUARY 16 - MARCH 11
PISCES = MARCH 12 - APRIL 18


and for today, i am sick ! its so unfair !
just because i ate kitkat with choc icecream ytd night !

so i was bedridden the whole day.

tmr shall be good (:

below are all my cam whoring HAHAHAA